The build up to graduation was bittersweet. I was excited and scared … relieved and stressed about handing my dissertation in – the final step before it was officially over. I knew I wouldn’t fail, or do badly at all for that matter. But what I didn’t prepare myself for was after. After the essays had been handed in, and my trip to Italy was over. After I threw my cap in the air and wore my gown. After I was no longer a student and my new label was unemployed. Achievements aren’t so black and white in the real world. You can’t just pass or fail. You can only try. And sometimes, when you’ve spent months trying to amount to the post graduation success you’d promised yourself, it’s hard to accept that some paths were never meant to be.
Perhaps, to experience a fulfilled life you have to spend more time living than planning how to live. I don’t know if this is true. I guess you’ll never truly know unless you try. And I’ve come too far to give up now.
Until next time,